Free-thoughts

Ok so it has been indeed quite some time, since my fingers last typed an exceprt here.  My mind and soul has been so occupied, blogging was the last thing on my mind.  So this is a short free-write moment for my followers.  I have a question to ask.  Have any of you ever wondered why when something feels so right something comes up that makes you question what the hell you may have been thinking?  Yet...it still feels right!  How about this...  Life takes such a toll on your inner being that giving up is the only thing that will give you peace, yet for some reason you cannot fathom why you just can't give up! That was I these past couple of months.  Back and forth, up and down, left and right.  Funny thing is I had absolutely no reason to feel that way, Jah Jehovah was on my side the whole entire time.  Since last october I have experienced confusion, anger, joy, happiness, tears, impatience, and even at one point blankness.  Thought I had something good by my side then a couple of weeks ago wasnt so sure.  For years I thought I had no solution but a couple of weeks ago all prayers were answered.  Hmmm, life is something else.  But hey, that is why I am here right?!  Learn and teach, one thing I know I was born to do!  Everyone in this life fears that their hardwork, love and or dedication will not be reciprocated..I am human too, and yes for those of you who have known me for years this may not be the side you neceserilly know, but I have felt it and I probably will again.  Life is so unsure and if there are two, well three things in life that are promised it is "birth...struggle..and death!"  

-Back in due time!
~bless~